Ok so its been a few days again **sry**  Ive been having a hard time coping with my anxiety and depression on top of dealing with Gary's depression and moodiness. Today I just broke down and told him he either needed to see his dr about it or move to his moms cause I couldn't deal with it anymore. I'm not sure if it did any good, but it sure helped getting it all out there.

Im going to start planning the baby shower soon, and even a registry. Its guna be fun to pick out baby stuff  ^_^ I still dont know how things are going to go after Lauren is born. Claire told me she assumed it would happen like it did with luke. Not sure how that would work because when Luke was born he went into foster care for a month before any papers were signed because his biodad was trying to fight me for custody of him. I don't know how long they will be staying in town after she is born. If they plan on staying in town while her and i are in the hospital. By louisiana law no papers can be signed for five days after the baby is born. We will have papers set up so that Lawrence will be on the birth certificate as Lauren's father so there wont be any problem with that end. But its still confusing and frustrating not knowing how things are going to go. Hopefully we will talk about it soon so i wont stress about it anymore. Ill keep you updated >.<

let the planning begin!

So today I got the ok from Claire about the baby shower. I am so excited to finally have something to plan. It feels so weird being pregnant, and know that there is a baby coming, but have nothing to plan, organize, or get ready for!!! Well today I was able to set the date for Mine and Claire's baby shower. I have asked around to my group of moms in my play group about if any of them would like to help me celebrate and they have all been really great. Claire didn't think anyone would want to come because they don't know her, but as one of my friends said today Lauren is apart of who I am and they want to celebrate her <3 Not sure just yet what I'm going to do *ie theme, games, ect* but I'm sure I will come up with something. lol. Claire wants me to register for her at target, and I think that I will, but send her all the info so she can look over it online and make sure everything on it is stuff she would want. and that way she can add to it. I know my showers were something I cherish and I really want her to be able to experience it too <3  Its supper late and I really need some rest so that's all for now.

Day two, im on a roll

Ok so had a busy day scheduled today. We ended up skipping TinyTown this morning since Lillyanna is still coughing pretty bad. Yeah, the dr says its just allergies but I don't want to chance getting a lot of other kids sick >.< Eliza did well at her ECE testing. We wont know until early July if she was accepted and what teacher she will have. Its a wonderful waiting game *smh*

We did go to the park though. Against my better judgment i let the girls play in the water, but they loved it. Met up with Hilary, Thi, Kirah, Kristine, and Kirrah then after went to Chick-Fil-A for kids night. It was a good day <3

Just a regular day

Nothing interesting to post today.

I was up most of last night with Lillyanna cause she couldn't stop coughing. felt so bad for her, but nothing I tried worked. Took her to the Ped today and they said its just a cold, that her chest sounded nice and clear and the couching was from post-nasal-drip. We did, however, discover that she had a pretty nasty ear infection in her right ear. Seems that's the only ear that gets infected. Wonder if is has anything to do with her cleft having been on that side. Ill make sure to ask her cleft dr when we see him at the end of the month.

After her apt we just came home and hung out till around five. Mom was just getting off work so we met up with her and dad at Captian D's for some half price fish dinners *gary showed up a little after we got our food. as usual, you say food an he comes running lol*  Those girls eat almost an entire dinner on their own! They love eating fish, that's for sure. After dinner I paid the electric bill at kroger, only to find out to pay the gas bill you have to have the actual bill. hugh, who knew. Next month im just going to send a check once i get the mail. No more running around or paying extra fees. Added all up, to pay my bills this month there were almost $10 just in fees to pay! blah. Got done with that, picked up a book for gary he had ordered then headed home.

As we drove on our street the girls saw our neighbors outside and started asking to walk down and see them. Even though it was already 7:30 i figured why not. Ended up having a very nice visit and getting back to the house an hour latter. Then, lol, since we were still out, and the girls had been playing and all, we went to sonic for half price milk shakes *after 8pm* It took forever cause their system went down and they had to reprint all the recepts to make the food. Finally got home around 9, got the girls a bath and they were in bed by 10. 

Now its 12 am, im sweating hot even thought the thermostat says 74, there is a good size thunderstorm going on outside, and i cant sleep a wink. Gotta be up at 8:30 to get the girls ready for TinyTown, then Eliza has ECE testing at 12:30. I so hope she does well, but not to well that they dont accept her into the program. blah, its hard trying to teach her new things only knowing i might be setting her up to be to advanced to where she cant go to preschool. Guess I will find out tomorrow. Hope I can get some sleep cause im guna need it!!!

Back . .. . .. again lol

OK, so I fell off the wagon. .. . .. again. Time to get back up and give this another go.

So quick update. Little baby is a girl and her name is going to be Laurene Claire. Big brother Luke was so excited when we told him he was finally getting a brother or sister *we told him just before our gender ultrasound* and was even more excited when it was a sister! I am 22+5wks and she is really active and you can feel her moving flipping, and kicking by putting your hand on my big belly lol. Im guna add some back dated posts with pictures and stuff when i get time, but for now this is where we are.

 

P.S. I got this picture today. <3

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You know when you have no one to talk to because the one thing you want to vent about involves someone who all your friends are friends with. Yeah it suck and feels lonely.

Dr apt in the am to check my pressures. Hopefully all is well. Gn world, I see a restless night ahead of me.

Wow, 4 days since my last entry, I'm starting to slack again >.<  Im with the Rath's again today. Talkin to IP more today, sigh. texting can be so great, but terrible at the same time. Things can be taken so out of context ~.~ Guna have to do some major re-con clean up this evening. Ill let you know how it goes.