when will things get better

I feel like im suffocating in this house. I cant cook, because the kitchen is always over ran by bugs and strange smells. not to mention all kinds of nasty stuff left out all the time. >.< We have lived off plastic plates and microwave everything for almost a year now and I just cant wont take it anymore. At this point, I don't care if we are in a good school district, or if Eliza will even they have a preschool *which tells you how desperate I am* Went driving around lookin for rentals tonight and ended up with a big blow out fight. Not sure whats goin on with gary but he really needs to snap out of it. Ive done all i can to make him feel better and bring him out of whatever deep dark place he is in, but until he decides he wants help and decides he wants to get out of it there is nothing i can really do.

In the mean time, today went as usual. Got up with the girls and made them breakfast even though i dont consider cereal a breakfast for a 2yo and 3yo but as i said, no where to cook. Headed over to Shreveport around noon to meet up with a friend before Lillyanna had speech therapy. After that back home. yay for my exciting eventful life. Girls are just about to finish up their supper meat and cheese sandwiches with mixed fruit then its bed time. Hopefully I will be able to get some sleep tonight.