Blog 1, Day 2094

Whats this all about? 

Well, it all started 2094 days ago 5 years, 8 months, 24 days. Now most women cherish first time mother hood, have a ton if pictures of them pregnant, plan the nursery and discuss baby names with their partner, and all in all enter motherhood in the normal way. Well, as you will find, nothing I do is in any way normal. You see, all those years ago, when a wonderful little boy came into this world, a  not so sure 16yo girl knew she had to make a hard choice. She knew that with only a half a year of 9th grade education, little to no family support, and no home to go to, her child needed more. So she made a plan, an adoption plan. She hand picked a family to raise her son, a couple that she herself would be proud to call family, and with one heavy step in front of the other, with every sorrowful heartbeat she began her journey of motherhood. Not as a mommy, but as a birthmother.

Fast forward 677 days 1 year, 10 months, 6 days. On a dark rainy morning, she was blessed with her husband at her side with her first daughter. Hearing mommy from a little mouth, watching as she grew brought joy to her heart, as well as pain. So many things she had missed that she was now experiencing. You can turn back time, and there is no pause or record. 501 days 1 year, 4 months, 15 days latter she welcomed a new daughter into the world. Who knew you can love someone so much, then love even more? 

Forward again 916 days 2 years, 6 months, 2 days. So much has happened that it would take another life time to tell. I was that scared, unsure 16 year old girl. I have been birthmother, wife, mother and soon to be surrogate mother. But now I am confident, sure, witty, hard headed, stubborn, right, and yes sometimes wrong. This is me, take it or leave it.